hi world~ just finished my shower~ had a rough day :( but baby's messages really cheered me up. was looking back the road that i've been through these few months~ in such short few months, i can get involved in so many gossips, fights, tensions and etc. am i the one? i mean is it me causing these problems? or is it that i'm that unlucky. 1 of the things that i learn at the service course previously was that first impression is important. but somehow, my first impression left down on others was a lazy and maybe self centered person? i dont know... somehow all these things come falling down on me and its crushing me to bits & pieces. just wondering how long can i take it anymore.
life is like that right? ups and downs... more downs than ups~ you just have to grab every opportunity. but somehow, i am a loser in that~
oh well~ shall stop thinking!
the first thing that i have to learn now is to give and take~ people give me this, i'll take. :)
nonsense, right ones, not right one, venting anger~ i'll take all of it. this is a cruel method for me to grow up~
making me more confirm that how cruel this reality world is.
the second thing i have to learn is to be mature? i don't know how to be more mature~ i think people got tired so easily that's because they were not their true self. it just means that they are faking theirs smiles, their actions and everything. i'm tired.... well well. shall just stop here~